"My thoughts are just stars I can't fathom into constellations."

I don't want to full down the trap I have before by saying I am desperately in love and it is going to last forever because that would be short sighted of me. Forever is such a long time and one day every human being will be dead, that might be tomorrow or it might be in a million years but there was a time before organisms had a conscious and could love and there will be a time after it. A time where there will be no love, or memories. I just want to live for today. Are we just lost in time or are we living ever second to the fullest? We spend everyday following social convention assured it is the best way to spend the regrettable small amount of time we have, but is it the best way? 

Unfortunately that is not for us to decide, all we can decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. Love is the best chemical reaction that happens with in us, some people can just love and love and love but others can't. Others can't forget, they fight, lost in a blizzard of pain and hatred and I find this sad to watch. Thankfully this is not a story of heart brake or pain but of compassion and faith.

They say something is always more fulfilling when you have to fight for it and this is know less true then the case in hand. The case I am alluding to of course is my new (well not so new any more) relationship, with one Kayleigh Gazzard. I will admit that I was a little apprehensive writing this blog purely because I have become so nervous about relationships and my ability to hold them together. I'm pretty sure I am shinning example, just not sure of what yet. But there is no doubt that I had to fight for her.

True love will triumph in the end, which may or may not be true, but if it is a lie then it is the most beautiful lie we have. Do you believe in true love? Because I do, I don't believe everyone is entitled to love or luck but I do believe in true love. I think everyone should get to experience it and it should last for as long as there life does. I don't think I was ever particularly lucky and I never found love but then all at once that changed, I found love and luck all at once in one beautiful, shinning example of human kind. It has always seemed so ridiculous to me, that people want to be around someone because they’re pretty. It’s like picking your breakfast cereals based on colour instead of taste. Perhaps with the exception of Kayleigh, she is so unabashedly beautiful that you are just drawn to be around her, but there is a second much more exquisite surprise. Not only do we get the astonishing beauty but we are also get to experience a near as makes no difference perfect personality. To be swept up in her personality is like having a fresh spring breeze rushing through your hair while being hugged by polar bears. Its an assault of the senses but an assault you hope never to end. 

Now I have talked of love before and I can hear you naysayers saying "Ahh yes, that is all well and good but what makes this any different? Huh" Well on the face of it, it doesn't but consider this. In 4 months we have had exactly zero arguments, spent most of the time smiling and the rest of the time is spent laughing. It's all going so perfectly for me to have any doubt in my mind. No doubt there will be issues like in any good relationship but I am assured that we will be strong enough to work through them. Better still not only do we enjoy each other but we enrich each other lives, actively adding to one another. When something new moves in to a system and only has positives effects nothing fights it, it just becomes part of the system, perfectly integrated. This is what has happened, we have come in to each others lives and only enhanced it, and so there has been no arguments, just plasure. 

Also we have had some beautiful times together, only last weekend we went for a long walk over the downs which is a beautiful part of the country, glorious rolling hills, entwined with rich green grass and naked trees. The sun glinted of the peaks and rolled on down the hills like golden rain, while the songs of birds reverberated amongst the spurs. After walking for some time  we chanced upon a gorgeous, secluded lake where we had a picnic and spent the rest of the warm sunny spring day lying in the sun together, I really could dedicate a whole blog to that day. This is just one example of the beautiful times we have shared together and I look forward to the many more awaiting us.

This time I am taking nothing for granted and living for every second we have together, to often at the moment I see relationships where they is constant arguments and unrest and it is so saddening. So to everyone please don't take your boy or girl for granted but love them and tell them every day that you do, you never know when you will need them. 

To the future; together. 

Love the Animosity Kid x