Humans are not proud of their talents, and rarely invite them round to dinner.

I am very sorry that it has been such a long time since I have blogged but I have been really struggling with writing them, I like to spend as much time as I need to get them right and after writing countless blogs I was just never really satisfied with the out come and thus, none of them ever got posted so I have done the easy thing and decided to write about other people. Sorry if you where expecting some heart felt emotionally fuelled confession to the world but my friends have advised me against it. Probably for good reasons but rest assured as I am sure proceeding's will return to normal soon enough.  

I think in this peculiar society we now live in where people aspire to be known for there boobs instead of there brains we have some strange ideas about life and how it comes to be what it is. "Yes children this meat did once have a face and conscious, it wasn't made by Mr J.Saisbury". So you understand the point I'm trying to make here? Also it seems that musicians and people with real talents have lost there prestige, they where highly respected professionals who spent years tolling away at a dream until they made it big, people now seem to think that all they do is go to Mr Cowell, win a glorified school talent contest and Bamm, there a big shot!

Clearly this is not true but for the vast majority of the population who seem to heading for an intelligence oblivion they seem to think that is the case. "Scary times I know". But never fear for I am hear to set some things straight, look at me caring for you lot, aunt I nice? In reality true singers, actors, actresses, photographers and all the other disciplines are people who work hard over many years to perfect there talents and try and get noticed by the big players in there industries, who make a youtube channel, or a tumblr blog, anything for exposer. These people work so hard and they are the true future of the arts. So I thought it would be nice if we reconsigned a couple of these such people right here, right now on my blog.

The first is a young singer, she has a little youtube page and certainly not the best recording equipment in the world, but that is kinda the point, making do with what you got just because you love what you do and you want to get it out there regardless. This however by no means detracts from the end result which is a beautiful expression of voice and passion. She has a lot of talent and I feel it is definitely worth a watch with her beautiful voice and gorgeous hair. http://www.youtube.com/user/pheebjus   

The second is another singer/actress and she has beyond any shadow of doubt got a career ahead of her doing something with her voice, she has a very popular youtube page in which she has a multitude of videos, not all singing, but mostly. Where she sings and flaunt hers ability to play at least 3 different instruments often being joined by her lovely and beautiful friend, there duets are wonderful as there voices just seem to work well together. She is beautiful and highly talented and her voice has brought me to tears on more then one occasions, also I have had the privilege of working with her on live shows and so hearing her live which let me tell you is a breath taking experience. Check it out! http://www.youtube.com/user/r0xyri0t

Now for a different flavour of talent. Now anyone who has ever been brave enough to venture on to the world of tumblr will be aware that any rich middle class girl with a SLR thinks they are David Lachapelle but the truth of the matter is very different. Photography is notoriously difficult to get good at and is more of a gift then a skill so I welcome you to a girl who's photography will blow your mind, for me I find the strength and clarity of the colours and textures the best bit, but it is like art and everyone's reasons for loving it will be different, she has a flickr space with a sample of her work so please have a look and email me telling me what you loved about it. www.flickr.com/photos/shelsanphotography

Writing is another commodity we seem to have lost faith in or sight of, I myself would not be able to write these blogs with out a certain level of competences with writing and confidence in my grasp of the English Language, they are not perfect but hey, I am dyslexic and I try my best. However one blog I really enjoy is one called 'In Gold Blood', it is a fantastic, insightful blog in to the everyday trials and tribulations of a teenage girl as she passes thought some of the hardest years of her life. For any guys struggling with girls feelings give this a read and it may help. There is a casual lightness in the way it is all written making it easy reading while still being engaging and interesting. It is not very well known so please do give it a read and leave positive feed back. http://ingoldblood-weeze.blogspot.com/

I have pointed out only 4 talents here but that is only 4 out of a sea of thousands of hard working, stoic ambitious individuals and I think we have to keep reconsigning and appreciating where the true talent comes form because I promise you it does not come from Simon Cowell's talent factory road show, but it is a choice. If you want to listen, watch and read a load of fabricated, manufactured, soulless crap then please don't look at the links and don't support your local arts and music. But if do like me appreciate individuality, new ideas and inspirational talents then take 10 minutes out of your schedule and have a look.

Love the Animosity Kid x

P.S I have big news but I am not allowed to share it with you yet. But it is going to be good! 

This is lonely. This is cold. This is endless and I know the growing up has only just begun.

I keep thinking about different blog topics and a few have come to my attention but as we all seem to be moving in to our futures they all seemed to pale in to insignificances as what is happening right now seems the most prevalent. I feel over come with loneliness at the moment because I am a spectator to all my friends starting 6 form and feel a little out cast. I know that is not there intention but an unfortunate inevitability of my situation. Since I am the only one of my close friends going to college I now have to face a fact that I have been trying to avoid and ignore all summer, now it is time to stand alone and be counted. The safety net my friends provided has now been lifted.

I can't help but feel like I am missing out on my friends, I keep seeing them in my head and reading on social networks that there having a jolly old good time together sharing the fears, stresses and joys that the new school term brings and they are experiencing that together while I literally have no one, just a useless feeling of self doubt and pity with no one to confide in that is doing the same as me. Sometimes I just feel like crying because this loneliness is so unendurable, like a crushing darkness around you. I have no girlfriend, no god, just silly old me and although my friends have been amazing in telling me I will be missed and they love me that is kinda the point. I don't want to be being told I will be missed, I want to be sharing the ups and downs with my friends while worrying about pointless homework. It's all just becoming a bit to much for me. Just another fun way for god to test me.

I know I choose this fate and I don't regret that, I just don't like some of the sacrifices I have had to make because of it. A number of large and significant steps have been made in my life lately, I have got a job, working in a fish and chip shop. How wonderfully British is that? But I enjoy the work and get along well with the staff along with good pay. I have received my results and they where okay, good enough but I wont lie and say I was not disappointed, all my friends did so unbelievable well, A*- A across the bored for most of them and it just drives the point home that "Jaye, you really should have done better!". Sometime life gives you a wake up call and sometimes you need it, life likes to kick you in the ass when you least wont it but I'm sure it will do me good and that point brings me neatly on to the next topic. My results after much pen tapping and umming from the college just about got me on the course, it was no easy task and I may have told a little white lie but sometimes you have to lie to get you where you need to be and I'm all for self-preservation. The point being is this course will be hard bloody work and will require absolute dedication and commitment from me in all aspects and the sacrifices will be large so perhaps it is best I got dumped when I did since it looks like I wont have any time for social endeavours.

And I suppose that is the point of this blog this evening, in growing up, you have to make sacrifices to achieve your goals and make are futures something to be proud of weather it be a bin man or brain surgeon. For me the sacrifices have started early and some of you out there who are reading this will be going through the same thing with wearying levels of optimism towards it. But at the end of the day when all is said and done we have to do it so to end this blog on a positive note. Good luck all my friends in your chosen disciplines, institutes and lives remembering no matter what we have each other and you no what? The growing up has only just begone.

Love the Animosity Kid x