Talking

Today I have discovered  the power of talking, I am not proud to say that over the last few days some animosities have built up between me and my girlfriend. They where not petty but they where small and I let these problems get a hold of me and turn me in to something I didn't like. Instead of talking out these little problems and misunderstandings, I let myself fall in to the trap of manly stubbornness, instead of thinking in a constructive way, I was thinking along the line of "why the hell should it always be me to fix the world?" When in reality it was party my-fault, I stress the party my fault bit, thus attributing 50% of the responsibility to fix it on my shoulders but in my stubborn state I could not manage it.

After two separate conversations me and my girlfriend where brought together in a renewed state of confidence for each others feelings and likely reactions and where able to put aside each others reservations and resentments with the vested interest of wanting to be happy again and not hurting each other. We went off and had a wonderful chat, we where able to lay are feelings and problems on the table and clearly, methodically set things good again.

The out come of this was that I remember how beautiful she is as a person, why I am so stupid for behaving the way I did and how lucky I am to have her and call her mine. Some one as incredible as her are a rare commodity and with her being with me that pushes her value up massively, I could easily lose her to someone better then me. Now I have her that means other people surely will want her so I have to careful. So I have to thank how just with the power of words I was able to turn a deteriorating miserable situation in a happy wonderful one for the both of us in a matter of minutes. And this whole thing was sealed with a powerful hug, you could feel the love undulating with in us and though us, this was a beautiful moment by the waters edge and Ill remember it in the fondest way for ever. If I have learnt something, then sometimes it takes a little bit of trepidation and fear to fully appreciate how amazing and tantalising my girl is and I definitely wont be making that mistake again!

If you take anything from this then it is make sure you value what you have, just take a second to sit back and appreciate the wonder of some of the people around you and how special they are to you, because before long if you don't appreciate them then they will soon disappear.

This is my second infatuation. 

Love the Animosity Kid x     

Hand built by Humans

For my first ever blog I wanted to write about something poignant and close to my heart, something that I could get emotional over and maybe let you in a little to the inner workings of me. I try to be funny but I suspect this one wont be. This is my first Infatuation.

The reason I live and try and better myself and my future prospects is a quaint one. I have always done everything in my life just to make one person happy, that one person has changed with the time and more often then not been the wrong person but I always tried my best knowing that even if the face changed then I would still have the skills and wisdom to carry on hopefully to a better person. I always try and do the best I can and give everything I can but now thanks to today and the weeks preceding it I do believe I finally have the right person to fall in love with and be happy and pure forever.

I have over the past few weeks come to realise that, that 'right person' was in fact right in front of my eyes. Some hard decisions where made, hard deeds done but now it has left me in a position where I could have something perfect. But still I waited, why? Because I was driven by a dream, a dream where are first time together would be perfect, the first kiss would be beautiful and the scenery exquisite. In a setting only befitting the beauty and emotion of the exchange in words me and her would be having. My first romance with this person was to be beautiful and I would have it no other way.

This day was to be had in Bath, a city of culture, architecture and love. The perfect setting for what I had in mind. There was one objective today, make her happy at all costs. Thankfully I seemed to be doing that all on my own and my worries where being put to bed one by one so every thing was falling in to place perfectly as it had in my head. A morning of light shopping with the unrivalled thrill of Jack Wills, followed by lunch. For this I had something special planned, I tock her to Jamie's Italian.

The finest Italian in the city probably the county. As we walk in and are lead up the stairs we cant help but marvel in awe at the hanging meat, which was probably still walking around that morning, the bags of fresh flour left about to be collected, and the stunning blend of treated steel and wood detailing the gorgeous restaurant. We arrive on a mezzanine over looking the lower restaurant but in professional style we are quickly ushered on leaving no time for taking in the paradox of the restaurant layout. We are shown to are table by a middle age Italian lady and are seated right next to the bread counter, the smell is in intoxicating and to no small surprise like many couple before us I should think, we order the mix bread starter still over come by the sent of the fresh bread. All the different breads are delectable and it is the first proper chance I have had to just admire my date. Wow she is beautiful, when she isn't busy looking at cloths or being distracted by what ever then she is just perfect to behold. The next course swiftly follows and before you know it we have finished and are getting ready to leave. As we ascend the staircase once more past the bags of flour and hanging meat I spot someone that I feel like I have met a thousands time but with out really knowing them.

We both looked at each other and we think we know who it is but can we be sure? We say his name a bit loud and he hears and waves at us! We are beside are self with excitement and adrenalin, I cant believe my luck because he is only adding to the day and making it that bit more exciting and memorable. Newton Faulkner gave us a wave and a wink, one of the best moments of my life and I was able to share it with her.

We walk on down to what is meant to be the piece de resistance but I fear it wont be after seeing Mr Faulkner but I don't mind as long as she enjoys it all the same. The art gallery is a wonderful building, high ceilings, long rooms and commanding light that floods the space with ease. Given her love of art my date moved around the gallery's and exhibitions with relative pace, much faster then I expected but then if you know what you like then I guess you know what your looking for. Before I know it we have exhausted the gallery's art and are heading out side, as I push the huge oak door open sun light hits us in the face, once again I cant believe me luck, the sun has come out for the bit of the day I have been building up to the whole time. But little did she know it.

We walk across the road and cross Pulteney bridge laughing at the royal wedding tat still for sale. At the end of the bridge is a ting little stair case spiralling down under the buildings, we walk down the stairs and in front of us is the beautiful little 3 tier water fall, we carry on walking a little while along the rivers edge until we find a spot we like and sit down. The nerves are building and I want nothing more then to just kiss her. I put my arms around her and turn the tone from light hearted chat to meaningful conversation. I pull her close to me and she returns the gesture, as I look in to her eyes I have never noticed how piercing her eyes are, the most beautiful shade of green looking straight in to my blue eyes. I feel with my arms with her gorgeous shape and admire how unbelievably beautiful she is. This must be a dream I think, it has gone to well to be any thing else. I look her in the eyes and place one of my hands on the side of her face, I'm surprised how soft her skin is. Then I utter the words we have both been waiting for all day. 

I'm not going to tell you what the words where, I'm keeping that for me and her to have as a memory forever. So sorry about that but rest assure they where well chosen words and they had the desired affect because they worked. I had waiting weeks for this moment and for the first kiss and this was the opportune moment, so I tock it, we moved in together slowly at first and then as are lips touched for the first time, all the emotions, endorphins, and feelings explode in my head and I was dizzy on a cocktail of sheer pleasure and enjoyment. The kiss was tender and delicate very much portraying and symbolising the temperament and personalty of this wonderful girl. This was the best first kiss of my life and I hope never to have another one. 

I imagine by this point you are at least a little bit curious to who this girl is, and why I haven't mentioned her name, well the reason for that is I wanted you to see her from my point of view not yours. Her name is Nina and she is the best thing that has ever happened to me, I am the luckiest man in the world right now, she is beyond beautiful, staggeringly wonderful and the best personalty there is to have. I want to and will make this perfect.

Thank you so much for reading my blog, this is the first one and I hope they get better and maybe even funny, I will try and get one done ever week or so but don't count on it now I have this new infatuation in my life, I will hopefully be very busy with that. 

Love the Animosity Kid.  x